We all make decision after decision after decision every single day. Most are menial, but others are monumental.
I want to celebrate some of the best decisions I have ever made.
Pursuing an undergraduate degree in Music and Psychology. I loved all of my courses. I loved my time in University and I loved everything I learned.
Moving to Calgary. Staying in Alberta instead of packing up and moving all the way to Ontario. Staying close to family.
Traveling. A lot. Traveling while I felt well enough to so. Traveling before I developed arthritis... before my HAE was discovered... before I couldn't work anymore.
Cherishing friendships that are deep and meaningful, and letting go of relationships and friendships that were not meant to be for forever.
Focusing on volleyball first. Ignoring all of the good-hearted people who wanted me to slow down... not knowing in only a few years I'd be forced to slow down. Playing as many hours a day as I could - while I could.
Adopting Decker. There are too many reasons to list all of them.
Relenting and going off of work. Don't get me wrong here AT ALL - I miss working. If I could trade all of this illness and work like a dog until I am 70 years old, I would. Being off of work has improved my stress levels by a significant amount. My health is a little less unstable, and I am not constantly in the emergency department. I hate that I cannot physically work, but I am beyond grateful that I had the option and did not immediately have to move back into my parents' basement when it happened.
Dating RJ. For very obvious reasons.
Getting surgery last January. That surgery has improved some pain and it has removed some stresses OUT of the equation entirely. Just fewer stresses. Something so small makes a big difference at home.
Taking chances even when they might seem impossible.
Getting back into writing.
Continuing to sing once in a while - mostly for funerals, weddings, fundraisers, and retirement homes. I get to sing all the time for people who just love music. It is rewarding in a way I never realized I needed.
Branching out and learning new skills while continuing to learn and improve current skills.
But the BEST decision, the big kahuna of all of em, the number one decision that paved the way for everything:
☆Deciding to FIGHT every single day, through every pain, every symptom, every side effect, and make a commitment to fight to live no matter what. Deciding that my life is precious and amazing and worth fighting for, no matter what kind of obstacles I will face.☆
Once that moment came and I made that decision - consciously and specifically - it is the sentiment I always come back to whenever I am struggling. I promised. I decidedly promised - to me, to my parents, to my future husband (who was only imaginary back then), and to God - that I would fight no matter what.
No matter what.
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