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Wednesday, 17 September 2014

Too Determined

One of the most important parts of my personality that I miss being able to show is "athlete".
Every day I just wish I could break out into a run or a jog or hit the gym or just start moving like I used to. I want to go find a softball field and play, or a volleyball court and run and jump and dive like I did no more than a year ago! 
Today I decided that no matter HOW I was feeling, I was going to take advantage of this nice weather before there is a snow storm on a weekly basis. I put on an old volleyball outfit, runners, grabbed my puppy, and took as many meds as I could. I had to take special care to bring my phone, my medical booklet, my wallet, and wear two medic alert items - just in case. 
I didn't just walk. 
Within five minutes I had a side cramp and I just pushed and pushed. I definitely couldn't run or jog, but that is BY FAR the fastest I have been able to walk in over a year. 

The distance was probably about three city blocks total. 

I didn't pass out. I didn't have to crawl home. I managed to 'speed walk' faster and longer than I have in a long time. 

Got home, vomited twice, basically flopped onto the couch, and tried to relax my muscles and my hips and everything else that was in pain. 
But I did it! 

Am I going to suffer because of it? 
You bet! 
Was it worth it to feel physically stronger for 40 minutes? 
100% 


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