Emotional Rollercoaster

Overall I would say that I am fairly even-kilt when it comes to my emotions. I wear my heart on my sleeve, so I get really into books and movies and what not and usually shed a tear or two during really emotionally raw moments. I don't feel legitimately angry very often, I don't think I lose my temper much (not anymore at least... I had a bit of a temper about 10 yrs ago for a while). Finally having well-balanced (or nonexistent) hormone levels definitely helps.

When I am on a corticosteroid, however, I can feel my emotional track winding and transforming into this insane rollercoaster.
Yesterday I was in the bathtub... crying... for absolutely no reason. I wasn't even watching anything!! And then all-of-a-sudden I could feel my blood boiling and I was furious about something like a missed phone call or that I forgot to get myself a bath bomb. Seriously. Ridiculous!!
I am having sweating fits and my thighs have these little red bumps and my sleep has been negatively affected and I am bloated and swollen and sweaty and I will burst into tears over NOTHING! I tried on a dress last night and was disappointed that it did not feel comfortable enough to keep. That's why I cried. I am an emotional mess!!! (However, I would like to point out that I don't think I was the only person who actually yelled at their window when they woke up to another blanket of snow yesterday... that reaction appeared fairly justified).

The lucky part is that I have had so much experience being on corticosteroids before that I have the wherewithal to know that these reactions are not my true reactions. The base emotion might be correct, but it is so far beyond exaggerated that it feels like a circus.

I mean, I finally am without my female organs and it feels like I am PMS-ing all over again.

Now, I am still optimistic. I think that these side effects will only be really noticeable for the first couple of weeks after each injection. So as long as the medication helps my SI joints for longer than a few weeks, I am hopeful that I will reap the benefits without the extreme nature of these effects for a few months each time I decide to do this. Only time will tell. And really, what other options do I have? (None. The answer is none.)