One of the great things about being forced to deal with a chronic illness and chronic pain, is that not only do you learn to appreciate all of the little things, but you also learn to become more patient, and enjoy times of relaxation.
In reality, my life can seem pretty boring. My schedule is a little sporadic, but really, I go to appointments, I spend time with my dog, I do housework when I can, do some sort of activity if I can, I cook, clean, then deal with paperwork, read a bit, watch some tv or a movie, and go to bed. That is an average day (a busier one). Some days I'll be able to work on my music and sing a little bit, and I'll run errands a couple days a week... But overall, my life is not adrenaline-pinching.
I love doing things that are exciting - but they have to be properly scheduled and usually planned out. I'm not a total party girl (I was, very briefly, sometime during University), but otherwise I never have been. I want that relatively boring, white-picket-fence type of lifestyle. I've always wanted that. And although my life may seem boring - I would also love to share it with someone.
Part of this whole struggle has made me realize that I really do love my life. I love having a puppy to come home to, I love relaxing and reading and just spending time outside. I don't need excitement all the time (and I sure as hell can't afford it anyways). I like living simply. I like having simple, small, routines.
I have had the opportunity to travel out in Europe - and that was one of the greatest decisions I have ever made. I did so because of a terrifying diagnosis and I wanted to see the world while I was feeling decent enough to do so. Would I love to go traveling again? Absolutely!!! Will I ever be healthy enough to go? Probably at some point... maybe...
But even while traveling... none of it was about 'partying' or getting 'wasted'. It was all sight-seeing and walking around and enjoying the beach and the weather and literally just enjoying everything around me. I've done some pretty crazy things (bungee jumping, skydiving) and I would still LOVE to go parasailing, hang gliding, all of those crazy stunts. I love boating, I love quadding, anything active is amazing - but overall - my life is boring.
I'm not sure how many other people feel this way..? It seems that the more people I meet lately, the more they want to just go-go-go all the time. Not necessarily drinking, but that is a huge part of a lot of people's lives (or seems to be). Everyone seems to be constantly moving, constantly active, constantly doing all sorts of things that fill up a schedule. Is it bad that on a Sunday, I want to sleep in, wake up when my body feels ready, spend time outside with the pup playing and brushing him, do some research, sit in front of the fireplace with a good book or a good movie, make a nice dinner, maybe do some cleaning then go to bed? It may seem boring, but I feel really content. And isn't that what it's about anyways? Being happy and content with your own life?
Either way - it would be so nice to share these feelings with someone. I wish I could take my contentedness and just extend that feeling to everyone around me. See if I can help them reach some of the feelings that I have. Because although I am in constant pain, and this week was particularly frustrating, I am perfectly happy today, and I know that it will continue. :)
The moral - I have a fairly simple, relatively boring, life. And I love it.
In reality, my life can seem pretty boring. My schedule is a little sporadic, but really, I go to appointments, I spend time with my dog, I do housework when I can, do some sort of activity if I can, I cook, clean, then deal with paperwork, read a bit, watch some tv or a movie, and go to bed. That is an average day (a busier one). Some days I'll be able to work on my music and sing a little bit, and I'll run errands a couple days a week... But overall, my life is not adrenaline-pinching.
I love doing things that are exciting - but they have to be properly scheduled and usually planned out. I'm not a total party girl (I was, very briefly, sometime during University), but otherwise I never have been. I want that relatively boring, white-picket-fence type of lifestyle. I've always wanted that. And although my life may seem boring - I would also love to share it with someone.
Part of this whole struggle has made me realize that I really do love my life. I love having a puppy to come home to, I love relaxing and reading and just spending time outside. I don't need excitement all the time (and I sure as hell can't afford it anyways). I like living simply. I like having simple, small, routines.
I have had the opportunity to travel out in Europe - and that was one of the greatest decisions I have ever made. I did so because of a terrifying diagnosis and I wanted to see the world while I was feeling decent enough to do so. Would I love to go traveling again? Absolutely!!! Will I ever be healthy enough to go? Probably at some point... maybe...
But even while traveling... none of it was about 'partying' or getting 'wasted'. It was all sight-seeing and walking around and enjoying the beach and the weather and literally just enjoying everything around me. I've done some pretty crazy things (bungee jumping, skydiving) and I would still LOVE to go parasailing, hang gliding, all of those crazy stunts. I love boating, I love quadding, anything active is amazing - but overall - my life is boring.
I'm not sure how many other people feel this way..? It seems that the more people I meet lately, the more they want to just go-go-go all the time. Not necessarily drinking, but that is a huge part of a lot of people's lives (or seems to be). Everyone seems to be constantly moving, constantly active, constantly doing all sorts of things that fill up a schedule. Is it bad that on a Sunday, I want to sleep in, wake up when my body feels ready, spend time outside with the pup playing and brushing him, do some research, sit in front of the fireplace with a good book or a good movie, make a nice dinner, maybe do some cleaning then go to bed? It may seem boring, but I feel really content. And isn't that what it's about anyways? Being happy and content with your own life?
Either way - it would be so nice to share these feelings with someone. I wish I could take my contentedness and just extend that feeling to everyone around me. See if I can help them reach some of the feelings that I have. Because although I am in constant pain, and this week was particularly frustrating, I am perfectly happy today, and I know that it will continue. :)
The moral - I have a fairly simple, relatively boring, life. And I love it.