Anticipation

We seem to be incredibly close to an answer. 
And not even just "an" answer. We might have found THE answer. The one thing that explains all of my medical history. I will know for absolute certain by August. 

Finding an answer, even if it's a bad one, is better than feeling this awful and having no idea why. An answer means that I can make a game plan: for my life, for my finances, for my future. I can actually plan and prepare for more of a predictable future! The answer may not be a good one, but I will be able to take back some control over my life. 
Now it's just a few more appointments, a few more consultations and a couple more tests. Then I just *might* have a definitive answer. 

In the meantime I have to be very careful not to get stressed, I have to document every little medical thing and keep an eye on every little symptom, I have to be cautious, aware, and always close to medical care. 

No far-off camping until August (if at all this year). 

How do I keep my stress levels down while waiting for answers? 

Personally, I take this time to educate myself ... Read research and journal articles, make my mind as busy as possible. Try and keep my mind on several different things - without letting myself get too upset/excited. And then do relaxing activities like yoga and bubble baths and herbal teas and cuddle time with my puppy. :) 

If I figure out how to keep my emotions neutral - I'll let you know. I could be rich if I figured that one out!!!!