One of the benefits of having to adapt to change so often, having to switch activities, having to constantly change my perspective, is that I have now ended up with several different loves.
I have many loves, I have many passions, and if I hadn't gotten sick, I'm not sure if I would appreciate this wide variety as much.
I can be an extremely focused person - so my health forcing me to look in other directions I actually see as a blessing.
Take for instance even as far back as junior high. I was still able to play volleyball, do track, play badminton, and participate in music and band, but I was no longer able to play basketball... So I turned even more to my music and started recording. Then, in high school, when volleyball and track were no longer options, I actually went back into dance. I absolutely LOVE dance.. It always gets to me and that is one activity that I wish I could have kept up with more. I miss it all the time.
And then things changed again and again and again... So I have developed a love for song-writing, for performing, for all types of music, for learning and research, for art, for cooking, for being a puppy mum, for camping, biking, hiking, for doing yoga, for finding quiet time for myself, for reading, for football, for writing, for photography (some), travel and languages...
As awful as my health can be some days, it has also sent me in so many different and enriching directions that I could never regret it.
I get down, I get frustrated, I get upset, but I also know that I have had the PRIVILEGE of being forced in directions I may not have taken otherwise. I have gained a new appreciation for several different facets of life that are so inspiring.
THESE are the types of things that make me feel like my life is absolutely blessed. I don't always feel this way... But when I sit down and think of all of the experiences that I have had because I've HAD to change the way I think and the way that i do things, then it makes me appreciate how my life has gone thus far, despite the pain.