One of the most difficult things is having to adapt to new limitations all the time. It is always changing.
I tend to push my own physical limits - I have always kind of been that way - and in my head, in order to build up strength and stamina and endurance and stretch my limits then I need to push them.
The problem with this is that pushing my limits can put me into an episode or just a bad couple of days. Plus - I hate realizing that my limits are nowhere near where I would like them to be.
It is pointless to worry about something that I have absolutely no control over, but it is definitely disappointing realizing that my limits are still not where I would like them to be, and we still have no exact answers (yet).
A few more appointments and some results and I should have some answers and then MAYBE I can start confidently pushing my limits knowing that it will eventually improve with constant practice. That's the hope at least.
Hard not to feel defeated though...