You Never Know

There are a lot of sayings where the message is the same:

You never really know what you can handle until you're forced to handle it. 

Every person has his/her own struggle to contend with - we have each been given a life with many amazing things and some difficulties to balance it out. 

I don't know about others (although I can guess), but there are times where I'm not sure I can take anymore. In fact, about five years ago I remember saying that I couldn't manage doing this every single day for the rest of my life. 

It's a daunting thought... Definitely dark... But there are definite days where the thought of this much pain and this much illness every single day for another (hopefully) 50-60 years or so seems impossible .... 

But you never know what you're capable of. I didn't think I'd make it this far - I didn't think that I could live without certain physical activities, or the ability to work, or having to even step back from doing music. 

But here I am. Doing it. 

And I'm happy - 95% of the time anyways. 

Just goes to show - you really never know. 

I love my life. :)