This week has been pretty tough.
I haven't had any bad news or bad appointments or anything... But I have been without pain medication.
Every once in a while I am actually supposed to go a few days without the pain meds. I am supposed to handle the pain and go through withdrawal so that when I start them again, the efficacy is increased. That way, it slows down the rate at which I need to have the dosage increased.
So, unfortunately, I am in agony. My cane and walker have already come out, I am shaky, I am in pain, I am horribly nauseous, and the pain in my hips is so awful that I haven't been able to sleep for more than an hour at most each night for the past few days.
I know that it's necessary... I know that doing this is going to help me in the long run... But it's pretty tough to handle in the moment. Not only that, but it is also that very clear and very blatant reminder that I cannot function on any kind of normal basis without it. That's doing a number on my emotions and my psyche right now.
I will likely be a shut-in this weekend - but then I will love how well the medication works next week. :)
Only a few days.