Today was amazing.
Today was the day that I was preparing for all week.
I had more fun today than I have in a while, and despite some of it being very difficult, I was able to push through the pain and enjoy it.
I had the opportunity to participate in a paid photo shoot.
I got to be pampered! I got my hair and makeup done and the stylist picked the clothes that I would wear, and I got to meet an amazing crew of stylists and managers and photographers, I got to meet an incredible group of people, I got to laugh and smile and just enjoy my day.
Yes, there were stairs. Yes, sometimes I had to be sitting a little too long or standing just a little too long, but they also had us switching positions and seats all the time - so my joints didn't get too stiff.
Probably the most 'dangerous' or 'threatening' part of today was that I let loose and had fun and allowed my adrenaline to go up, merely from excitement. I may be bedridden for days or even weeks - but this is the kind of experience that I deem worth it.
It was a great opportunity and a great experience.
The great thing about having 'invisible illnesses' is that I am able to do photoshoots, and unless you know who the person is in the picture, you would look at it and have no idea that the girl in the picture is ill. And not only ill, but VERY ill.
It's a little bit of escapism.
I got to pretend as though I was helping design a brand new application for smart phones. We literally looked at design spreadsheets and pie charts and came up with random ways to improve the application. I got to pretend that I was giving presentations and reading code and algorithms... I got to be someone who's entire life doesn't revolve around a hospital, or a bathroom, or medical jargon. And the best part: I got to have FUN today.
Do you realize how rare that is for me? I spend most of my time at home or in doctor's offices. I need to carefully control my social outings and my energy levels.
Today I simply had FUN doing something that I enjoy and with people that were amazing all around.
What a great day.
And worth any turmoil that is causes over the next few days.