I know that I have mentioned this before, but late at night, after I have taken all of my nighttime medication and I am all relaxed and in bed, that's actually when I feel the best!
I take extra medication that causes drowsiness (which is why I don't take them during the day), and they all have added analgesic to relieve pain!
Without my brain being forced to focus on all of the different sources of pain, not only do I feel better in a general sense, but my thoughts are much more clear!!
I get my best random ideas about twenty minutes after taking my bedtime medication.
I get new ideas, I remember events and ideas better, I think of new lyrics and new innovative ways to spend my time and spend my energy. I get outfit ideas, hairstyle ideas, and I can make plans for future events.
Here's the problem.
Due to the fact that I remember everything better, I tend to want to chat. A lot.
I just get so excited about new ideas and excited about remembering everything that I meant to ask or mention... That I end up truly chatting someone's ear off - be it that of my mom's if she's staying here, a friend if she is working night shift, or my boyfriend.
I will literally continue chatting until he starts snoring....
And it doesn't offend me in the slightest. Whenever I feel even a LITTLE bit better, I tend to want to stay up and chat about every topic in the world. Most of the time it isn't important - and if it is, I write it down.
The thing about chronic pain is that not only does it hinder your physical capabilities, but it takes away a chunk of your thought processes. It steals any extra room. Chronic pain acts as a mental block of sorts - which hinders creativity and innovation and new ideas.
The times that I should be sleeping I end up purposely staying awake just a little longer to really enjoy and appreciate this new openness in my brain and simply being able to deal with less intense pain.