There are hundreds of things that I would like to do. I have lists of things and I have things planned so that I continue to have a positive quality of life.
The truth is
Most of the time I am fighting just to hold it together.
I may make plans and do lots of fun things, but when I get to those things, the majority of the time is spent trying to get through it rather than just sitting and enjoying the experience.
I am basically struggling to hold it together 100% of the time.
It's very frustrating.