Today I managed to get motivated enough to:
Put some laundry away
Focus on watching a movie
Practicing piano
Reading
Writing in my journal
Write a new blog post
Play my fashion game on my phone
These are no small feats for me. I still haven't had the motivation to get back into cooking, let alone go out in public all dolled up and feeling peppy, but it is a step in the right direction... because once you lose motivation, it is a bugger to get back. When I lose motivation, that is often the time that I need the most help and start to wonder about assisted living.
But I am not there yet. And I don't want to get there anytime soon. But sometimes it is a struggle simply to take care of myself, and I have days of failure that's for sure. It is just that I feel like I truly need medical assistance and monitoring on a day to day basis... but then I get a bit out of the rut and push that instinct to the far corners of my mind so that I don't drive myself crazy.