Okay - I don't normally feel full of complaints, but I need to vent a little bit today.
I have been on a fluid diet for the past three days for a procedure tomorrow. I am also due for an injection, so I am having drastic temperature changes and sweating fits because my body needs the medication, but there is no point because after tomorrow I should not need it.
I am supposed to try and keep my strength up, but I am not allowed to eat. This feels impossible right now.
The anti-biotic I am currently taking requires that I eat and drink with every dose, otherwise it can cause ulcers in my esophagus and stomach. I can feel it burning my stomach and it feels awful.
I want to keep busy so that I forget my hunger, but I feel so awful from everything else that I can't concentrate on anything - even reading and coloring requires too much focus, and I can't pay attention to a movie. So I have been watching movies I have seen a hundred times to keep me kind of distracted without requiring full focus.
Usually when I have to fast, I tend to sleep several extra hours to ignore how hungry I feel. But then I have a tough time sleeping at night. And I am not allowed to take all of my bedtime medication in the weeks before the procedure, so I am much less sleepy than usual.
I want to get chores done and do anything I can to distract myself, but my energy is zapped, and I am even MORE nauseous than usual.
I want to have the popsicles and jello, but now I feel completely waterlogged.
Okay. Thank you!
I know that I have a rough road ahead of me, but it will be worth it. All of this is worth it. It's a necessity and this is my choice. I need this to happen, and this is what I need to do for it to be a success. It's only a week, and I will get back to eating in a few days, or late next week at the latest - and I have already decided to get myself some Peter's Drive-In when I am allowed to eat all that heavy greasy goodness!
This is probably the most mild prep of any procedure, so I should consider myself lucky. I am simply cranky.... and nervous.
:)