I think one of the biggest changes to my life has been socially. I can't just pick up and go anywhere on any day at any time. I can't be as spontaneous, I can't meet up with friends all the time... definitely not like I used to.
One of the oddest things about losing that social aspect is that my social skills have decreased.
Let's face it, I am a talker. I talk RJ's ear off every single day. I talk my parents' ears off all the time. When I DO finally get together with friends, we are always talking for HOURS trying to catch up.
The problem here is that now, when I finally get in a social situation, I seem to have issues editing myself. I mean, as much as I consciously try to ask tons of questions, I always tend to want to tell a story related to whatever topic we are talking about. And then I leave the social situation COMPLETELY self conscious that I have talked WAY TOO MUCH about myself, or my dog, or the relationship I am in, or whatever else.
So, dear friends:
I promise, I am 100% interested in the lives of my friends and people I meet. I DO realize that I may come off as vain or selfish, and I apologize. It is something I am actively working on.
I just get so excited to see people and meet people and be SOCIAL that I talk talk talk talk talk talk talk.
RJ now has instructions to notify me if I am pandering or being at all inappropriate.
I JUST MISS PEOPLE and being social.