No matter how hard we try to keep everything aligned... Things go wrong. There is no way to predict from one day to the next every single event that will take place. It is better (in my humble opinion) to have prepared a strategy to deal with the fall-out, whatever that might be.
Here is the problem. When someone is upset, frustrated, angry, jealous, heartbroken, even incredibly excited - these are all very strong emotions that demand immediate attention.
When have you ever felt one of these but managed still be able to stay calm - mentally, physically, and verbally? It is extremely tough.
Most people, when dealing with sadness, focus on other aspects of their lives to get them through the turmoil.
Some people focus on their careers, others focus on spending more time doing certain hobbies or taking up a new skill or even just seeing certain friends more often.
We keep busy. We keep our mind on other tasks so that we don't continually feel sad. We remind ourselves that there are other major parts to our lives.
But what if there is no job to focus on? My job is my health - and let's just say that that isn't all hunky-dory right now either.
Music is my main hobby, but if my voice isn't working properly because of tears and song lyrics exacerbate the situation, then that's not an easy out for me either.
It's also not as though I can just hop on a treadmill and sweat out the frustration like I used to. And now that we are in the "Polar Vortex" of the Great Canadian Winter, time outside is kept to a minimum for now.
Okay okay, I am getting a little pessimistic.
My point is that I actually had to make a list of things that I can do around the house that can occupy my mind for an entire day so that I can start moving forward.
My list currently includes three phone calls, a stack of filing and paperwork, grinding Decker's nails again, running the dishwasher, doing all of the laundry, vacuum and sweep, yoga and meditation (although that second part may not go over too well), cook myself a fancy dinner and add some wine, read one of the two books I am currently in the middle of, and do a hair mask. Gotta have pretty hair.
I will not physically be able to do all over it... But at least I have several ideas to choose from.
Somehow, I must keep busy. If I sit too long then I will think too much... And I can't afford any more migraines this week from crying.
Keep busy and hope that the pain in the pit of my stomach subsides...
I am proud of myself tonight though. Why? Because instead of reaching for ice cream with strawberries and marshmallows and chocolate chunks and chocolate sauce - I reached for probiotic yogurt.
Hell yeah!