Yesterday was a pretty great day. Not just in everyday life stuff, but in regards to my SI Joint pain. Yesterday the pain was lessened.
While it might seem counterproductive, I wanted to take full advantage of these rare moments. I did not even need my cane for a couple of hours while we were out!! That's pretty huge. I didn't have to lean on Rj, I didn't have to rely on a cane - I felt more normal yesterday.
So I tried a few new things, I was active, and we went to a wedding reception. (By the time we were headed to the reception I obviously needed my cane).
But Rj thought of a few things too. When we got into the reception space, he brought in my wheelchair cushion to sit on so that I wasn't sitting directly on a plastic chair. The space was very quaint, so nothing was a far walk. But best of all - I did not need as many extra medication to handle the night.
Pain doesn't have to disappear to have a great day. Any day with a little less pain somewhere in the body is a positive thing. Any day I wake up with a little less nausea, a little less pain, a milder headache, fewer intestinal cramps, or reduced swelling, is a better day.
The only problem is that, even though I know that what I did yesterday I won't be able to do again for months or even years, I want to try and be more active. I want to go again today and do a little more. It makes me miss the days when I was active every single day in multiple aspects.
No. Today I am lying in bed. Today my pain has heightened way past my usual 'normal'. I'm sore and I have been in tears a few times.
But the biggest question is always: "was it worth it?".
100% it was worth it. I will deal with the fallout for one pretty great day.
So today I plan on watching my Seahawks play the Rams, I plan on watching movies, I already paid my respects to the brave soldiers who fought for our freedom, and I don't plan on really doing anything productive.
