Ever wake up feeling utterly stressed out?
It's like everything you have on a to-do list all-of-a-sudden becomes overwhelming. Then, even more frustrating than that, you wake up restless but super sick...
So there are 20 things I NEED to get done this week, but today I feel awful... but also restless. So I can't just lie in bed like I should because I have too much to do... but when I actually left the house to go get a few things done, I essentially turned around and went straight home because I could not physically accomplish anything.
So I am too sick to go and do anything by myself - I definitely won't drive anymore today.
My handicap permit is in Rj's truck anyways.
I am too restless to just lie down and relax.
My to-do list is ever-growing instead of shrinking.
I need to do SOMETHING but I can't tackle anything on the list so I end up doing random things that don't really help except to reduce my restlessness. (Like continuously talking but not really saying anything, or walking in circles just to keep walking).
On top of all of that, we did manage to do our Costco trip (with the wheelchair of course) ... but they did not have a LOT of what we needed. So the trip itself was terribly exhausting and put me in a total funk today... because we'll need to do a second trip somewhere else that will ALSO be exhausting. And it all needs to get done this week...
So one trip turns into two and cuts into time that was supposed to be spent getting other things done....
Aaaahhhhhhhh
Frankly it feels like I woke up on the wrong side of the bed to the bombardment of my own thoughts and stressors and lists. So many lists.
So many lists.
Lists lists lists.
Time maybe for some breathing exercises and yoga and essential oils and anything that will help me relax... and put away my lists until I feel well enough to tackle them.
